2. What's happening here
3. My fears and concerns
1. As I hear of Hinckley and K.J., I feel that the Lord is blessing you as I'm out here, which means He's doing what he promised. I also feel an overwhelming sense of love and pride for how strong my family is and how we never falter to love one another even though we are miles apart. I know that right now is tough with time, I have felt that way a lot in the past and I know that it's rough and at times all you want to do is sleep the worries away. But I know that this is not right, we can't run from issues. We can only face them with courage and love. I share this with you for reasons, but I am glad to hear that you are doing just that. It is also amazing to hear what you're up to. I'm going to miss Thanksgiving and chilling with my family and friends. It's strange not having good potatoes and missing out of the home cooked meals I took for granted. As for missing me, DONT! I know that it is better to think of what you have and not what you don't have. It has made a world of difference in my life as of late and I want you to try it. (K.J., and Hinckley, don't take life too seriously. Just lay back and enjoy the time you got there. As for missing me, K.J. I hope you know I'm missing the short you as well. I hear you grew a lot just after I left. I guess I can't beat you up any more ;). And Hank, you are giving it your all, and for that I'm proud. But I don't want you to work yourself to death, remember that relaxing is sometimes the best thing to do. Try playing a video game with K.J. it'll be fun! Mom, I'm missing the hugs I used to give you. Here, hugs are a huge no-no, not even your companion or anyone, and I get in a lot of trouble for doing side hugs in public. Please, don't be afraid to hug my brothers whenever you get the chance.
2. This week we have had the honor of gettting two more people in our roma. They both have issues and had to stay another week. We now have Elder Christofferson - he has high blood pressure and a stutter. The stutter hasn't ever held him back but the high blood pressure is (Please, keep him in your prayers). His companion is Elder Fisher, he's had trouble following all the rules. He has a really strong spirit and we all love how out-going he is and how much he loves the work. As for me, all the lessons, now, are taught in complete Spanish. It's fun learning Spanish. The addition to our roma has been hard on everyone. The CCM president came to us to see if it was ok, we all said yes, and we love having them, but it has put a power struggle in play. We just got over it a few nights ago. Our old roma leader became our zone leader and our new roma leader has a plan that will help these two, but our zone leader does not like the plan much and was acting against it. We all had to sit down and talk about what was going on and what was happening. I'm really glad I fought with K.J. all the time because it was the chew out sessions I got all the time that helped solve the issue. So thanks Dad for those lessons. I also have gotten two nicknames the last week and I'm not sure they fit. One is Crazy CAZIER- they heard I did some rock climbing and they all asked me if I could climb a wall here in the CCM. I managed to get up and down before anyone noticed and so I guess that I am crazy??? I assume that's where it's from but that happened in week three and It just wasn't a big deal. My other nickname is Doc. I happen to be a bad luck charm because when I'm around people get hurt. I don't hurt people, but I am there. So I have been making A LOT of trips to the infirmary. I also am getting really good at cleaning wounds and applying the right kind of bandages and then passing them on to a doctor to prescribe drugs. The last couple of weeks I've been told I need a haircut but the people who cut hair here have messed up every haircut of the people around me... so yaaaa, I'm waiting for the Field. I have gotten over this little mound and am working on another. It's strange but once I get one thing done I have a harder one waiting for me.
3. Because I am leaving and traveling on Monday, November 13th at 2:30 in the morning, I need some money on my card. The church is not paying for my bags to fly so I need quite a bit of money. The laws for luggage are different in Mexico. It costs a bit more for luggage so the church reimburses us once in the Field but won't pay beforehand. They also have a limit on how much your carry-on can weigh, 20 lbs. Because of all my study material and stuff my carry on is resting around 40-50 lbs. I was not expecting to have this rule and so I am leaving most of the stuff the church has given me behind, my only other option is to leave clothing. I'm not happy about this at all and am really upset. I guess my mission president can give me the stuff again, or that's the hope anyway. As of late, we have been told a lot about how we are loved but how we do not do a good job. Or how we need to improve but then they say but remember General Conference (as in the talk Uchtdorf gave about not being too hard on yourself). It really feels like a just kidding type thing (ex. you're dumb... just kidding). It hits me hard because when I work harder I tend to break rules, like the go to bed by 10:30pm or the don't wake up till 6:30am. Those rules have almost disappeared for me, but I get in so much trouble because I read from 9:30 (when I get home) to about 11, and get up at 5 to study and work out. I have been called out multiple times and I say it's the only way to fit in personal study and to be healthy and the subject is dropped. I feel like they want us to work but are not willing to drop anything.... it confuses me. I know it's different in the Field and that's what I'm waiting for, and what I'm craving now. I love hearing from you and worry about not hearing from you. Please continue writing. I love and miss you all!!! - Elder Cazier
To Dad, Know that your e-mail was a call to action for me. I have accepted that call. I am in the process of doing what you have said. I wish and hope to become better. I feel that I am doing ok now but I refuse to stop. My goal is to come out of the night that covers me and face the enemies I have with courage and never give up! I also know that my agency is something that will die when God destroys me if he so chooses. No man will ever destroy it. I am the Master of my Fate and the Captain of my Soul! I want you to know that I am doing my best and I long to do better. With Love, Elder Cazier
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